January 29, 2024

Chapter 26: Normal

By Steve Hauptman

 

 

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Adult children guess at

what normal is, then

try to imitate it.

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When I was a kid I didn’t feel normal. 

Or whatever it was I thought normal felt like.

What I felt was inadequate, scared, confused, lonely and emotionally hungry. 

I felt this way all the time.

And I assumed these feelings were unique to me.

I assumed other people didn’t go around secretly frightened and hating themselves.

I was also convinced that, if you knew that I felt this way all the time, you would consider me abnormal.

And we all know how the world treats abnormality.

So I hid my feelings and pretended to be like everybody else.

And in this way tried to control how you saw me and how you treated me.

 

 

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