January 31, 2024
Chapter 28: Lying
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Adult children lie when
it would be just as easy
to tell the truth.
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The truth always made me uneasy.
By the truth I mean what I really thought and felt, how really I saw you and myself, and what I really wanted and feared.
Revealing any of that felt dangerous.
You might not like my truth.
You might judge or reject me because of it.
It felt much safer to conceal or distort it.
I concealed and distorted for so long that it became automatic, a habit, my default position.
And in this way I tried to control my fear of other people.
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